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spiritual / religion talk 5/23/09
Friday, November 27th, 2009I needed to post this… a quick place for myself to get a hold of my thoughts… I wrote this post back for Open Diary that I’m no longer a member of. Sorry if there’s still HTML coding in it, I tried getting it out as fast as I could.
I haven’t ever done this here, or if I did, it’s been a while. I’m going to discuss my ‘religious beliefs’ with everyone.
If you’ve read me a while, you would totally know I’m not anywhere near RELIGIOUS in a certain denomination. I’m only spiritual. I wasn’t exactly born in a religious atmosphere (as in the home). My relatives, however, has introduced me to all kinds of religions [pilgrim holiness, nazerine, baptist, free methodist]. While I’ve appreciated all of the religious experiences I have had going to several different churches and learning in classes about several religions, I still have to come to a conclusion about what I personally believe in. I think I’ve always longed to learn about reglions but always have settled (happily, that is) in being just spiritual especially with the impact of taking Native American Literature in 1st year college of where we discussed the jest of believing in spirit AND of spirit of one soul to nature. That’s about where it all began for me. In absolutely no order, I will explain what I believe in with describing situations with main words.
FAITH: Standing up for what [you] believe in and standing strong to those morals and not letting someone change your mind. Faith is about believing in what you believe in, regardless of what happens. Faith, for me, is not letting go of the fact that I have hope – and sometimes it is hard… even along the road of wanting to give up, I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Faith is me standing ground for all of this below that I believe in and will continue to believe in till my dying day.
HOPE: If you all read our story of the steps of how we got here, then you already know what hope is… or what I believe hope is. Hope is hoping for the best, believing positive things will happen and will happen for a reason as it was supposed to… HOPE is living life — rather it be a rollercoaster ride or not, you’re up or you’re down, but you’re still positive for the majority of the time and find the glass clearer at the end. HOPE is living each and every day knowing soul purpose and reason why you’re hoping and having hope.
LOVE: Even from way back when, I knew this was the best gift in the world. Love is free, love is absolutely amazing when you find the right person, love is loving and being able to accept all of the personal flaws in another human being and loving them for who they are…. Love is doing stuff you’ve never done before, love is getting butterflies even after being with someone for a long time, love is holding hands, laughing… etc. Love is a big great adventure… if you are with the right one.
KARMA: When someone does something really bad to someone or makes fun of that person, I totally believe they’re going to get it back twice as bad when it comes back around and bites them. This is also for the ones who lie and steal, too. I also believe that possibly in a past life, those people that walk in and out of our lives (for reasons of bad) needed to fulfill some requirement of karma… this goes for exbfs and exgfs… they just served a sole purpose of you learning some kind of a lesson to move on with life, then that karma is over and life moves on.
DREAMS [telepathy thru dreams]: The dreams that are completely to do with a situation and then that situation happens. I believe are to be dreams that are made to make you prepare to hear the news and to be extra cautious of something in case it does happen. It’s the reality in dreams prior to whats going to happen. Take for instance, back when we first got my Peaches (she’s dead now), I had a dream that she ran away from us when we were out walking her. A couple days later, we really did go walking, she really did get loose from her collar and she was running out in the road. Luckily there wasn’t a car coming, I took off running after her and finally caught her. She was ok. The other dream I had was about being in Elaine’s old classroom and the teacher replacement telling the class that Elaine wasn’t coming back to school. I was screaming YES SHE IS, SHE IS COMING BACK! That very morning, a close teach friend I still call Momma, pulled me aside in her media class and told me that Elaine was retiring. Since those situations, I have still had numerous dreams that gave me prefeelings before a situation. Usually, spot on.
GUT FEELINGS / FEELINGS AROUND SOMEONE: We all have our different feelings about if someone is creepy [called - bad vibes] or something’s going on with athat person and we shouldn’t be friends with them [doing something shady]… then it usually is. I’ve dealt with that a lot working in retail. There had been several times when I and the managers talked about certain people being shady or if they were weird, and they usually were, and they eventually got caught doing something or weeded themselves out. I highly believe in vibes, too. I guess that part just comes with being human…. but it is also a gift because some people don’t have gut feelings or get vibes from the bad people.
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON: I stroooonnnnggglyyyy believe in this! If it all falls into place and it happens out of good — it was meant to be and it was totally for a reason…. as if it was already pre-planned to happen but we just had to make it happen by taking risks. Getting online and signing up on yahoo personals was a risk for me (my first one, actually), even bigger risk was contacting my boy but look at where we’re at now… It’s wonderful and ever since I met him, we’ve taken more risks together than anything and we’ve made it. Another everything happens for a reason example would be when back in 2004 December there was this dog that just happened to be outside when my parents came home at night. We ended up putting Doggie Stares into the backyard, we kept it until the vet could come and get it. She was too wild for us but I grew attached to the idea of having a dog. Next thing we know, a week or so later, we were handed Peaches because a neighbor couldn’t take care of her anymore. Having Doggie Stares at our backyard and taking care of her prepared us to get Peaches.
DIVINE SPIRIT / POLAR OPPOSITES / TWIN FLAMES / SOUL MATES: I believe that everyone has a soul mate and, if it’s the right match, those two people will be inseperable (hence, me and boy). Those people will be completely polar opposites with some things in common so the two will get along. One mate will pick up on things that the other mate isn’t good at and vice-versa. These people will be greatly in love and feel like they’ve known each other forever. When united as one, it is a feeling so close to heaven that those two people that share this feeling will never forget… and will always be known to each other for future lives and past lives.
MAKING WISHES AT 11.11, FINDING CANADIAN COINS ON ACCIDENT PURPOSES, EVEN NUMBER TOTAL AT REGISTER CHECKOUT: These things are all good luck for me…. When I worked in retail, I’d find canadian coins and have good luck to last for a while after having found it. After not finding too many coins, I went to another conspiracy of mine that just came about… was having a customers total ring up completely even after tax. I knew it’d be a good day if I got one of those.
STARS/ FORTUNE TELLERS / FORTUNE COOKIES/HOROSCOPES: I believe all of these have significance to truth to it. I have a feeling that it has a lot to do with being closer with nature and the universe, feeling as one with world — unity of everyone and everything around. If the sun is in align with the planets (which is for astrology signs) – everything is fine. Also, I believe that mood rings (even though, yes, I realize this is fake) plays some role in the human body/emotions and feelings… and it is relevant to me because I believe in the mood ring function. I believe on wishing on shooting stars. One night, I was leaivng my boys house but my truck wouldn’t start, so he came out and sat with me in the back of my truck waiting on my parents to come and fix my vehicle…. We saw a shooting star, and wished upon and from what I can remember… it came true. :)
LIFE LESSONS& PREDESTINED: I sooooooooo believe that each one of our lives has been written/predestined right before we’re born. Something somewhere or someone has written a plan IN THE STARS (the sky, universe) to be given to the world / to us as we are born and grow up. There are things that we do in our lives that brings us to the right path and serve us the life lessons that will guide us to who we really are and what we’re really supposed to be doing. It’s already in us – but we have to meet certain qualifications of life lessons before we really figure out life… and what we’re supposed to do. Or the big plan, that is… and then it is only up to us of how far we’re going to go.
PEOPLE YOU MEET: I believe that the people you meet in your life will help you among the way to becoming what you really are… sometimes they’re great, sometimes terrible, sometimes just people that came quickly in and out of your life… each serves a purpose in your life and then they’re gone. Old friends, people that have died, etc. Just like I believe I was meant to meet Elaine just for the sole purpose of finding HOPE and starting to believe in that. I met Momma for the very reason of trust, to have my moment of ‘packing up the memories’ and to have a substitute mom who really cared… and still very close with her today. She’ll be a staple in my life forever. I was meant to meet Sherrie online here several years ago, to have her to talk to me online and help me when I’m struggling with something and to give me advice (since Elaine passed away)… Now that Sherrie is gone, I literally thought I had no older pesron to give me advice (I do have Momma and we’re regaining that friendship since I’ve moved, after not talking a long while with her)… anyway, I realized that in the end, I had to stand on my own without advice for a while — and since then (with one month after her death), we had made it here and all was ok. And, I was supposed to meet my boy for one huge factor (besides love, we were meant to work out & meet, us use our support for one another to continue with each others dreams, to move, etc), he was supposed to rescue me… and that he definitely did.
NATURE / WITCHERY: Now, this might get a little crafty for you guys to read… I’m all about nature, all about being connected outside with the world with the universe with the stars and everything… All of my life, I’ve felt sooooo alive when I’m around water and the ocean and sea (might be because my soulmates eyes are blue – as blue as the ocean, and when I look into his eyes I see the whole world) but anyway, I just feel like it’s mean tto be that way for me… calming, etc. Witchery has a lot to do with the outdoors and spiritual… I’m not a witch now (even though I strongly believe that I was in a past life), but I have read into wicca before and it’s really interesting. I really do want to read more about it someday….
PAST LIFE: I believe in this , too, as stated about. In a way I also think that I was a renaissance woman… one of those women that didn’t want a family but wanted a lover and a career…. one of those girls that stirred it up back then when women didn’t really work. I don’t want kids and together my boy and I never want any, either, no desire… so that has to the be the only explanation is that about my absolute need to want to work.
Whew, it’s late, I’m tired… and I just feel like I’m rambling on and on. Those are just some examples of what I believe in… now you’ve read my beliefs… what do you believe in that you have in common with me? Share some stories, some beliefs, do we differ? Want to add something? Any questions?
QUESTIONS/ ANSWERS
What is luck when it’s common? Canadian coins if they’re close to the Canadian border, it’s not so uncommon. Good luck is definitely something that someone thinks up for themselves. Just like when I worked at Goodys, I’d ALWAYS find canadian coins in the register. When I moved to other stores, it was really uncommon… so I had to think of something else that would be good luck. Canadian coins were good luck for me at that period in my life because (it’s all about the mind) when I foudn them, I constantly had good luck. I probably have over $1 of pennies and numerous other change in Canadian Coins. I still have them all, tucked away, in a box… for safe keeping.
Another thing 2 things I just thought of — anytime my managers from Goodys & I would eat Chinese food together, they would tape the fortune cookie message on their desk at work (data office), when I still lived at my parents, I taped the fotune cookie message to my desk… so something I did. The other thing I just thought about was what can I have as my good luck charm now? One of the things could be finding unique shells at the beach — the 2nd beach we went to, I found a heart-shaped shell. WHo does that? Who finds that out of all of the shells? I also found a heart-shaped chip when I was eating it a while back, my boy found the same thing in a different bag of chips. Just stuff like that. :)
